Throughout these three years of study in my degree life...
I have gone through ups and downs...
From being a consistent top scorer in class since primary, I have start to go down in ranking...
From a nerdy schoolboy, I start to engage into events, camps...
From a nobody, I start to make friends across all different courses in my uni...
From a zero knowledge in investment, I start to learn and win awards...
From a student, I turned to be a tutor, a watch-seller, a jersey-seller, as well as insurance agent...
In the end? I'm still stucked in the uni doing shit....
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I was once telling myself, ranking isn't the most important stuff.
"You don't need to be No.1 at all time to get yourself happy..."
But the truth is, I was just telling sour jokes to console myself...
I wasn't working hard enough to fulfill my own potential...
I may be not good enough to fit into the first line runner, but I know I should do better than these.
Yes I do regret for not putting enough effort.
I can blame every single shit in my life, events, friends, work, whatever...
But in the end, come on dude! You have to face the reality...
The problem is all in me... Nothing else...
In fact, I'm the only one who gonna suffer, not others...
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Besides the down part, I learnt to organize activities...
From Chairperson till event helper, I have tried out every single position in the board...
From a junior to a super senior, I have met many kind of people...
Having argument till I resign from my position, or even have scolding on each other till face turned red...
In the end of the day, we make friends and shake hands again...
Things might not turn well all the time...
But every single thing like these make me grow...
I dare not to say I am an expert in activities for now...
But I can say that I learnt well on how to organize things in a proper manner...
I learnt that how to work together for a better result...
I learnt to lead, to follow instructions, to take up responsibility, to be task-oriented, to be people-oriented...
In short words, I learnt to be a better person through these activities...
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Many would say "Hey, study and organize activities only maaa, I also can do it laaa"
Yea it's true that everyone can have such experience...
But I have my very own story to tell for my 3 years degree...
Have you ever dream of having your name carved and framed to be placed in the uni comp lab?
I did it... I was fortunate enough to be part of the Top 20 player to win my uni a comp lab...
I was the youngest achiever among the 20, and I feel proud over it...
Though saying I was good in investing or whatever, I would say luck played the major part of it...
I am fortunate enough to play a role in the CME Trading Commodity Challenge...
Well I may not be outstanding enough to be picked as the winner but it was an awesome experience...
It taught me that never ever get into commodity market! Lol...
Volatile market gives heart attacks and plenty of surprises from seconds to seconds...
It was a good lesson to my emotion control...
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I have been spending my sem breaks with different group of friends, travelling to different places.
1. Chan Loon, Bear and the gang to Kuantan...!
2. Mary and the clan to Pulau Redang...!
3. Wai Kin and the awesome siao kia to Sabah...!
Who could say No to a bunch of nice friends to have trip with?
They are awesome and those trips are always full with laughter...
And those experience shall be carried on with me till my last breathe.
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I joined in this PMP programme and get to know loads of Monkeys from different courses...
We have great time in celebrating birthdays of the members....
We have great time making fun of each other by testing all the games ourselves before the camp...
We have great time in every single meeting that drag us half dead when reaching home...
Every semester, people come and go...
Your mentees will live on their own after few weeks of guidance under you...
Everyone goes on with their own life...
He/She might still recognize you and greet you in the morning if he/she is kind enough...
Sometimes they don't even give a damn on your presence...
But this is life...
You can't blame much...
Everyone has their own choice of living after some time...
So why get your emotion being influenced by others behaviour?
Life is just too short for you to be angry over unnecessary stuff...
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I may boast a long resume with long list of activities I took part in...
Band 5 MUET larh, President for this la, Chairperson for that la...
Winning some challenge larh, Organized some camp larh.
But I neglected the most important part in my degree life...
I screwed every single major subject with C+ and C... (Well one exception with a B+ so far)
Compared to what I did in my secondary or my foundation...
This CGPA or GPA thingy has always been consistently LOW in my degree life.
I regret for not studying hard enough in my past.
I may once boast to have a good track record in academic, if not best.
But now what I could feel is just regret and sorrow.
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When this brand new semester starts...
It has more like a wake up call to me... I wonder if it's a bit too late...
Friends around me have been graduated and left me alone in the uni...
Those who failed their subjects aren't longer in the same class as I did...
I am all alone on my own feet now...
No others to support, no more laughter in the mid of class...
I guess this is the punishment and also the cruel reminder that I have wasted too much time...
Looking at the good side, HEYY! I could concentrate better...
Yes it is... In my first week, I have paid 100% attention to all my lecture class...
It somehow just remind me on how I study for my foundation...
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I am really praying hard to hit all my target for this last semester in uni...
I wanna achieve a result I have never achieve before in these three years...
I wanna get another two external paper passed in this end year...
I wanna continue my legacy in my own way...
Keep moving... Don't stop...
Then destination won't be too far ahead of you...
