【巧克力 x 106】

It's sem break... Ya I know...
After few days of jalan jalan cari makan.. I started to feel bored (as usual)
Plenty of plans to go for trip go into halt as plenty of places go flooded...
Oh ya another reason is OUT OF TICKET... 
So hope that I got myself a car to go around Peninsular...
But hey.. That isn't worth it anyway...
Won't it be too demanding to ask a car just to travel around? ==

So instead of having my time out there spending ringgits...
I spend my own sweet time in front of lappy...
Surfing net like nobody... Trying to get as many new info as possible...

And HEY..! Guess what??
I found this post in Lowyat forum...
And now I know, " Wow, it's like so damn common for such problem nowadays"
I'm not alone facing it...

That also explains why I have scars all around...
Hard to explain them as ppl might just got scared off..
Even friends or whatever... Just tell them it's chicken pox spots will do ==

I was once hated it alot.... 
But now nahhh... It's more like part of my life...
If there is no way to go against it, then accept it...


Heyz dude,

heard about your girlfriend having eczema...Anyways I'm having the same condition too...Few things that you need to know though, eczema can be triggered by alot of things. Can be anything...

Define anything? Food for starters, is probably one of the most common things that can trigger it...Well for some of us might go Duhhhh...even I knew that, well not all of us do..so yeah be kind...

One thing I came to realize that my trigger would be, you know those latex bands, those neil armstrong ones, the ones you wear to symbolize something...No..I do not mean I am allergic to the cause, more like the latex used or the materials used to produce those, those things tend to make me itch more..one more supporting argument to justify is that, I have a rubber material watch which I do not wear anymore..why? It makes me itch. 

So yeah, anything...and I do mean anything can cause eczema, from hair dyes right down to the food. And it doesn't necessarily have to spawn at the are where you have contracted, once it triggers, it can happen anywhere...Most of my areas that got affected are my legs and arms....

Which brings me to my next point, remember when I said anything? Stress can cause eczema as well...I bullshit you not. I know a couple of people who get eczema when they are stressed..Also, by stress, it doesn't only mean the type of stress where you stress of exams or assignments or work. IT's the type of stress where you are not sleeping enough or resting enough type of body stress. 

Another thing that you have to be careful with..or rather your girlfriend, is bathing...Extremely hot or cold water is bad for the skin, causes it to be very uncomfortable. Although it maybe shiok...I know...I did it before, the effects after that is my skin turns really red...so yeah..try to avoid that at all costs...At least try...

Steroid creams and injections can help..I wouldn't deny this, I went through the miracle injection of steroids before..THe effects were almost instant...everything was gone and look stable, but after 3 days everything came back again...And steroid injection isn't cheap...steroid creams will help as well..but long term effects aren't good. As steroids can cause alot of damage...

And, just bear with me for awhile here...I know I am being abit long winded, but let me explain, eczema IS NOT A SKIN CONDITION, contrary to what people think, it's the immune system which causes all the itchyness and what not. So here's the linkage between steroids and the immune system. Every time you go for a steroid treatment, you suppress your immune system..What this means is, think of it as you are pushing down something, and when you do that, it loses the fight to come back up....so when your immune system is down, this means you are very vulnerable to various illnesses...

Or your immune system fights back but with force...maybe abit too much force...

So yeah..I would recommend if at best, a non-steroid treatment...I am undergoing one right now, eat pills...I would tell you now itself, it worked so well..I was cured...But after a long and gruelling process...Currently undergoing it again becauseee it came back...no it is not because the pills didn't work...more like my diet caused everything to come back..(Drink beer la, sleep late la, etc) 

So now, I am going through everything again...Haha...you have to be prepared to fork out money and not to mention your diet has to be changed nearly 180 degrees...The diet they recommend is AVOID chicken at all costs, because of the hormons and what not they inject. Not saying you should therefore avoid chicken...no it does not work like that...cause the hormons clash with my medication and will therefore cause my condition to go backward before going forward...like 3 steps forward and 1 step back. 

The name of the pill here is called HEROSE DERMA-ZEMA CAPSULE. You could contact the company and they can give you much more information then me...Btw, the information above is all real time and from what I gather from personal experience..I just want to share...THe most important medicine one can give to a eczema patient is, alot of sensitivity and care...

Yes...sensitivity...don't go round pointing and go Eiiyiierrrr ugly...Harlo...we also got feelings wan k...

So yeah I think I've said enough..hope the information is useful..good luck! 

【巧克力 x 105 】

What a night for me...
Sound funny for a 21-year-old boy to have a nightmare?
Hmm. I don't know, I never has had such bloody one until yesterday...
Just don't feel good of it... Really irritating...

Somehow why I write this is to reflect on how I feel on my examination...
I put high hope in scoring this paper, but things never gone that way in the finals.
I tend to mix up some principles and end up giving loads of wrong fact.
What does that mean? My ace has gone down to the drain...

Hurray... I have never been that bad feeling before lately...
And the feeling starts to come back, to feel bad after you screwed a paper.
Maybe that's my study passion come knocking my door again...
It has been some time since it last came into me.

What is my aim when I come into uni?
I have been thinking,

"Hey, I am not gonna have a chance to lay my hands on events again after I graduate."

"Hey, Uni life suppose to make one have a chance to try out these and that..."

I joined several events, keeping myself busy with work.
Trying to experience every single bit of it, scaring that I would never has a chance for it anymore.
Academic results? Well, not really concern much on it like last time...
Not after my SPM result being released.

That was a huge turning point of my life.
I thought it would secure me something, at least something to guarantee my tertiary studies.
I put in all my effort into it, striving so hard for Aces and I made it through...
12 As, without fail to achieve my target.
I was overjoyed for a few mins when I got it. Yesssss, just a few mins.
What make you feel so great? Your effort get paid off.
But it doesn't come in full package.

In the end, it still never secure my dream to study overseas and so on.
I missed out a lot during my secondary school life.
I might be the top boy in it, breaking all the prev record and keeping it still until today.
So what is the point? Money still rule...
In the end, you would see others fulfilling your dream by studying overseas with a mediocre result.
And you have to face it anyhow...

Going through that dramatic year in my family financial situation...
Family relationship ups and downs...
Even relative who give an cold eye on you when you get into shitssss...
I will forgive but never forget...
This is a realistic world, and it always have been.

Ideal world only exist in fairy tales..
And the real life is no where near it...

Quality? I don't know if I still possess any of it.
But I know I have to make things clear to myself...
Looking back is to make you stronger, not demotivating...
Looking back is to make you realise, what you have missed and never miss them again...
Opportunity might come twice, might not be too...
Never ever look down on yourself, no matter what happens...

Well, coming back to the paper...
It isn't that bad as thought...
Just losing an A, but might get a A- or a B+ back...
Comparing those C's I got in others, I tend to be too demanding this time.
Good thing is, I start to be demanding in my result again...
Bad thing is, it starts to make you ponder what you really hope for again...
Maybe not really bad too hahaha...

【巧克力 x 104】

Yesterday was the very big day for us...
Course Registration date has never been less glamour than any other date...
As usual, a hard fought war with hundreds of compatriot to get your desired timetable...
And this "tradition" has never fail to earn criticism...
Yep, without fail...

One thing good is that, UTAR management has been kind to seniors this time!
We got the privilege to login 2hours earlier to grab whatever subjects we are interested in...
And guess what, less than 2mins and we are done ...
No additional 30mins countdown clock, Server down blablabla...
GREAT STUFF!

But sorry to juniors... Most of them lost in the battle and become cry baby in Facebook...
It's always saddening to see them getting timetable which make them puke...
But this is smtg they have to get used to... Good luck pal!


Well, I did struggle before registering...
Thinking hard on should I extend my graduation date or not...
Listing all the possibilities, calculating all the pointer I need to get to achieve 3.00...
It's not smtg too hard to decide but it just took me hours...

I hope to graduate in time with the peers of course...
But will I regret later with the result not being up to expectation...
To take 7 subjects in the final semester is definitely a hardcore move...

Seeking advice from my dad, my friends, even my ex-colleague during internship...
Some say yes, some say no, some even give me loads of ambiguity...
I can understand... No matter how, it is still my call, my future...
I appreciate truthful answers from them... Yeah, even though I know some are not lolx
Esp this Mary.. LOL, her comment never fail with epic words...
But I know all her words are truthful...
She really think well on the consequences...
I think I made my decision partly because of her words too...

What is the point to rush my graduation when I have not achieved 3.00?
Below that is nothing much different with hundreds of others...
Not to say stand out, but I am already so near to the target...
With good track record in Co-Cu, erm not so bad English, just a little bit more for 3.00...
Why not spend another few months work hard for it?

It may not be significant in job finding...
But it definitely gonna mark smtg in my life...
That's for sure... And I am not gonna allow bad one to leave behind...

Thanks ^_^ I know you gonna read this...

【巧克力 x 103 】

这学期也快走到尽头了...
记得小学时背的优美文章一样...
都喜欢把时间形容成巨轮一样，一直滚啊滚...
而我这一滚，就滚了七个星期，又是考试搏杀时期了...

对于这学期大致上还算满意...
两科被纳入积分的成绩到目前还算不错...
这学期也是最后一次能够为自己争取进入President或Dean List的时候...
三年课程居然没一次可以接近这行列...
这次是最后的机会，当然要放手一搏！

大学生涯就快走到尾声时却有着一份不舍...
不管是那三不五时挂冷气机的讲堂 （现在好多了）...
还是那每次等天梯迟到眼睁睁看着巴士在眼前开走 ...
还有跟那班朋友三不五时偷瞄班上美女 =X
这些都是在以后出来工作时的美好回忆...
对，只能够是回忆了...

毕业以后大家都会朝自己的方向奔去...
改行的改行，创业的创业，继续埋头苦读的继续努力...
回到属于自己的州属，书写自己的未来...

天下没有不散之宴席...

大家一起为我们的未来打拼吧！roarrrr